Three topics. Of the three, one brings a blank, the other brings a vague curiosity, and only the last actually inspires at all. If I'm to be fair, my mind is in all sorts of places at the moment, and only one of those places is this classroom. I'm slowly trying to pull it back in, but the urge to be in those other places is really strong. I made a to-do list, in order to focus myself over the next few days, we'll see if it's actually of any use. I have gotten a few of those things done, so that's good. I forgot to cross them off. Maybe tonight's meditation will help to settle my brain a bit.
Heh, I guess that 'stole something' isn't a blank after all. I stole my brother's sunglasses while I was home, thinking I might need them, but without any real honest of intention of returning them before winter break. They don't fit quite right, sized for his slightly smaller skull, but they do keep the surprisingly sunny snow from blinding me. If I'm to be honest, I do have a bit of klepto in me. Mostly around my family, in a sense that I think we all do. We'll grab little things that belong to another sibling or parent when we need it, and those that were stolen from will simply attribute it to stuff getting lost in our house. We all sort of know it happens, and make jokes about "Oh, that's a nice sweater! You know, I used to have one just like that..." but it works itself out. I'm much less apt to steal things from people outside of my family, but I do have a tendency to take little things. A rock, a bit of sea glass, a nice pen, an eraser, a little scrap of a picture, a little yarn from a blanket, maybe even a whole hat or shirt if it gets left in one of my various abodes. I lovingly hoard these little prizes, and each reminds me of the person I pilfered from. A little physical object that lets me feel closer to them when I am, as I often am, far away.
On the other hand, the matter of wearing shoes indoors is pretty much an academic one to me. I am sort of half Japanese in that respect; I do not like shoes to be worn inside a house or living space, but wearing shoes in a school building or business makes sense to me. I used to enjoy shoes, or at least socks, and always liked to have something covering my feet. Recently, though, I have begun to appreciate the world as felt through bare feet. Tae Kwon Do can probably take credit for that, as it has me practice barefoot for an hour or so twice a week. There is so much to be felt in this world. I think that we rely too much on our sight, wonderful sense though it is, and forget to actually touch the things around us. How many of us know how a blackboard feels against our cheeks? How many of us have lain naked on pavement? How many of us have stopped and stooped down to feel the wet, cold, outside stone steps with our own bare hands? There are so many sensations that this world has to offer us that we cannot hope to feel them all before we pass away. And to be sure, I do not have the time in my life to devote to feeling as many as I can. But, sometimes I can remember to try, and in trying, do my best to appreciate each feelings, as old or as new as it may be.
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